Forever

I haven't been updating my blog since... since.. like, forever, if i am exaggerating... I've been thinking alot the past few days, especially after all i heard... from the various sources of mine, I came to realise that society is not as friendly as you think it is. Nope, at least, not to me. Then i began to think again.. Why is it that someone gets so... LIKEABLE in like, a fraction of a second while I thrive to not be hated in my numbered days. Y'see, the result of my sessions of self-UNhelp; I have stinking attitude, stinking character, and stinking sense of style. Yep, and guess what? There's more. Unfriendly, stuck-up, being proud when theres nothing to be proud of, having too much confidence, c'mon add 'em in.. I know you want to. I'm downright mean? Rude? Okay, I can accept that.. IF YOU SAID IT TO MY FACE. If you think something is wrong, please, SPIT IT OUT. Why bother telling everyone else about what you think about someone else, why not telling it straight to his/her face? scared? Well, I've been thinking.. would you rather have someone think you're dangerous after all the back-talking about someone else and lose their trust in you, or having someone thank you because you've been a true friend, telling them what was happening? Because frankly, i didn't think I had anything wrong till I was told. Most people are like that. Would you know you blink alot if people hadn't told you that? NO. In fact, you wouldn't even realise. Up till the point when someone comes up to you and says, "hey you blink alot". THEN you'd realise. I got a point? Defend yourself. Prove you know more. I prefer that. Tell me I'm wrong. If I'm wrong, I wouldn't know, because I only have my own opinion. if you're wrong, you wouldn't know, because you only have your own opinion. Dig my point? Also concludes to: you don't know something is wrong until people tell you. Why did you think camps and major showcases from companies give out feedback forms and request for you to complain about them? The reason I'm blogging this? Well, a blog IS an online diary that you let certain people read, right? and dearly beloved readers, This message-slash-blog post isn't referring to a certain person, it's just in general. PLEASE don't be offended, I can't stand people hating me. If you think soething is wrong, please, please tell me. I'd thank you. Seriously. Im the type of slow-brainers that dont get anything that is indirect.. so don't expect to tell me in a flowery-indirect manner kind of way, because I won't get it.
Kay, I'm glad I voiced this out- hopefully... just by the slightest chance I'd feel better. And I admit, I have been back-talking at certain people I dislike. But not anymore. I prefer to bang it straight. Reason? Hopefully they'd change, (not to say that I dont have to) for the best. Implication? "yeah, I think there's something wrong with me too". *walks away* "That freak is so mean, she's just trying to get at me cuz she's jealous!" Or so i heard.