I just came back from my aunt's house and somehow something made me open my blog. I went straight to the cbox, hesitating for a while before started reading it. I hate confrontations. Anyway, I really felt touched by what all of you said. Thanks, and I really agree with Felicia.. Blogging really did make me feel better. The last post was posted before I went to church, and my dad was shouting at me because I was not yet prepared. I felt really upset in the morning, but very very much better now. Thanks to all that were concerned, I really appreciate it. Love you guys (and girl) so much. Anyways, when I arrived church I was, as usual, greeted with enthusiastic friends I meet every Sunday. They can be considered as my childhood friends, we've been to plenty of camps together... Felt slightly better when I saw them, partly because I wanted to get away from my dad as soon as possible. He was complaining in the car about silly stuff... Something about me being delusional and always daydreaming. Is daydreaming illegal now? Sheesh. So I entered the worship hall and prayed, as usual. When I was praying I tried hard not to think of other stuff, and prayed really hard for God to comfort me. God obviously answered my prayer because the hymns were really comforting. I forgot what they were called, all I know is that it really comforted me.. The sermon helped me a teeny bit, actually. But the hymns and the responsive readings were what comforted me most. I forgot how the church really can comfort me. I felt happy when we left church to my aunt's house. My cousin came back from Labuan, so we went biking together.. Watched journey to the center of the earth in his really awesome home theatre. Literally. Kinda enjoyed myself. Especially with the food, because my dad and aunt are really good cooks. All in all, I felt that life has more meaning than to just emo like that. I should have realised that a long time ago. I haven't felt that inner peace in a long time already.